As my mind wonders and I begin to ponder I begin reflecting on things, things of maybe some socio/spiritual matter, such as the Karmic wheel I mentioned in one poem, how it not only effects corrupt clergy but each and every one of us, the Maker being the only exception to the rule.
I think that I'm a basically descent person, some people will vouch for that, but I have some burdens weighing on my shoulder. My life has been pretty rocky, having gone through mental illness, 4-F (medical rejection) from the military because of it, after a high ASVAB (entrance exam for US military) score and otherwise passing the physical with flying colors.
After my military rejection, I went back to school to study art and writing before those plans fell through. Right now, I'm getting to practice on one of those on this blog.
My life pretty well down the tubes, I'm still waiting for someone to be a friend-lover-confidante to share my life and feelings or perhaps even bare my seed.
I'm hoping that someone reading this can help me with my problem. Got a load of stuff to get out of my system as well as some personal matters to get out of the way back home in Mobile. I know that I'm in need of therapy. I'm hoping to get my act together enough to avoid repeating some of the same mistakes, walk a straight line and try to build some good Karma. There are still a few things I'm not comfortable talking about openly to just anyone, at least not now, because I'd need to be able to talk alone and in confidence. I have some critical matters that I'll be needing help with.
Some day I hope to work to help eleviate some social problems plaguing us, such as child abuse, mental illness, poverty, various social injustices and corruption, both religious and systemic, which can contribute to other problems, such as crime. People resort to doing things they otherwise wouldn't do. First I need to take care of my own problems.
May 27, 2017
After six and one half years I'm back on my blog, gone though some experiences, some good, some bad, but I believe I learned a lot in that time.
I left New Orleans on December 19, 2016 and am back in my home town of Satsuma, Alabama.
Got a Yamaha F-310 acoustic box guitar that I'm teaching myself to play from a combination books and some downloaded videos. Just put a new set of strings on it, medium-light phosphur bronze. I like the clear, crisp sound.
I happened on the guitar at the New Orleans French Market in 2011 or 12, can't recall which, when I asked the vendors asking price and he said "50". I was a bit surprised to luck up on a deal like that on professional grade guitar and case, both in mint condition and said "dollars"? Then he calmly looked up and grinned and jokingly said "no, euros." So I reached into my pocket and shelled out the money right then and there, most of what I had on me at the time because I knew I couldn't pass up a deal like that which probably wouldn't come my way again. Now I can start fulfilling a life long dream of learning to play a guitar.
I think I'll practice my guitar for a while before getting back to my painting, an oil on canvas painting of a corn spider from a photograph I took when I was younger and I was actively into photography.
I have nine other canvases and five canvas boards that I plan on covering with some art work, then I should have something of some value, it'll just be a matter a of finding some buyers. New Orleans is supposed to be a good city for artists but it is a rough town. I'll figure something out.
How I happened on a deal for art supplies seemed like a rather unusual chain of lucky coincidences
While in New Orleans I was on my way to a Sav-a-Lot grocery and decided to stop by a Taco Bell which was right across the high-way. It was on a Sunday and in front of the restaurant were some news papers setting on top of the news dispensers.
I picked one up and a gentleman chatting with another man said they were his so I asked how much
and he said two dollars. So I paid him 2 dollars and went inside the Taco Bell to eat something and
and look over the paper. While clearing out the Sunday ads I run across a Michael's Arts and Craft ad
and decided to hang on to it thinking I'll probably not have an opportunity to use it but just in case.
When I walked out of the Taco Bell I glanced over and saw a new shopping plaza I've never seen before.
When I went to check it out I looked up and low and behold there was a new Michael's store. I just got
a return on my taxes and the sale lasted through out the week so I went in to shop for art supplies. I
went back almost everyday of the week because different items were on sale and they were 40, 50 and
60% off depending on the day of the week.
